I don’t know you personally and I haven’t heard your struggles but I will tell you that you can’t stop now.
You’re tired – whose not?
You don’t know your next move – many of us don’t.
You haven’t found the balance between kids, spouse, and work – girl, there is no balance.
I don’t know you personally, but I know feeling tired. The kind of tired where you want to put your feet up and say an “eff” to the obligations and responsibilities of your day. The kind of tired where you’re a broken record and even YOU are done hearing yourself talk. The kind of tired where you’ve been pushed back so often you don’t WANT to go at it again.
I love being all of the things…
I love the cuddles and adventures with my children and I love working on the farm with my husband. I love checking off the the to-do list and tackling the jobs that entitle me “the boss” — but when I’ve got errands to run, meals to make and all the other things I gotta do, I feel it. I start comparing myself to Carol, the freaking awesome soccer mom who is on time, looks good, volunteers her time at PTO, schedules weekly date nights with her husband, and makes it to church on time, EVERY time. Well, Carol sucks and she’s make believe so I need to knock that crap off.
Stop comparing your life to anyone else. Your life is not comparable to those people and if you continue to try and gauge your accomplishment and your happiness on what you think it should be, will you ever find it? Everyone struggles, even Carol.
Friends my point is simple. You were made for this life and these moments. God made YOU, wonderfully-perfect you, to live this story and influence the lives of those around you AS YOU ARE. And trust me, you are doing a great job.
So no, right now you are not allowed to stop. You can take a rest and focus on yourself for a bit – but then you must get back up and you must speak kinder to yourself.
You can be all the things. Rise up, stand tall, and be amazing.