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A little bit lost

Once we flipped the calendar to July summer became a blur, it’s like that every year though and I’m sure I’m not alone in saying a feel a bit lost in these last few weeks of summer vacation. On the farm It took most of the summer but we’ve got all our fields planted, and looking ahead to next spring we should be sitting good for cow feed – we just gotta make it through winter. We’ve said this before, almost every year for the last few because our plans and goals keep changing. We’ve talked a lot this summer,…

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Hurdles from a first generation dairy farmer

In 2004 I knew very, VERY, little about agriculture and as if it were possible I knew even less about being a dairy farmer. However I AM a deep well of motivation for other people and so that did not matter. When the guy I had fallen in love with said he wanted to start his own dairy farm I jumped in with both feet, determined to make this life ours. Things I didn’t do: talk to other farmers, read any agriculture magazines, or Google anything involving cattle. My answer to every stage of our business plan was “yes, we…

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She wants your permission

The woman carrying bags of feed, she wants you to give her permission to take some time off. The woman holding a teething child and wearing yesterday’s shirt, she wants you to give her the o.k. to sit somewhere quiet. The woman sitting with her parent, the roles reversed, she wants you to step in without making her feel incapable. She isn’t weak. She isn’t lazy. She’s determined. She wants to be there for her animals, and for her family, and for her friends. She wants to fix the problems, to make the day run smoother. She’s a caretaker. She…

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Working with my farm kids

“Well, I love you 100 and I love bunny 16” Because when my 4 year old son says he loves his bunny, a tiny bit of me remembers the crazy screaming banshee woman from 20 minutes ago and assumes, clearly, he loves his bunny more than me. Thankfully when I asked him who he loves more I was reassured with a kiss on the cheek and his 100 vs. 16 ratio that I am still his favorite. Being a working mom, a stay at home mom, it’s all hard. For me, being a farm mom is a guilt trip roller…

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Thirty-five random lessons learned

I’m nowhere near where I expected myself to be but exactly where I need to be. At three and a half decades old I’m feeling a bit wiser, like “hey you twenty-somethings …. pay attention to your elders”. Today [April 4th] my momma celebrates 35 years of being a mom as I celebrate the years of growing into the hot mess I’m learning to love. By wiser I also mean like knowing this blog post should be in list format because I feel like lists are a big thing; easy to read, easy to skim through when you don’t feel…

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The future is [more] female

As I was saying goodbye to my husband our youngest child asked his dad if he was going to work? The response was yes. “Like get in your truck and drive down the road to work?” I suppose on one hand I like the idea that our children don’t consider the farm “work” and that at 4 years old my littlest is seeing his mom carry out the farm chores. But on the other hand, I’m sad that I’m doing farm work alone more often and that one of us working off the farm isn’t so much a choice but…

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She stays

The cattle trailer backed into the driveway and we each held our tattered piece of paper. We walked up around 20 head of breeding age heifers, the females over 14 months old, and stood in the doorway. We’ve sorted cattle for over 10 years together, generally our hands at our sides and our conversation is hushed, we know how to work together after all this time. This morning though, our bodies are shivering, clouds of heat from the girls make it hard to see, there is another person in the barn, and he is rattling off ear tags. Man who…

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The udder truth

When someone gives you the blog post title “udder truth” it can only lead to a heartfelt and honest, middle finger to the year that was. When 2018 began I was hopeful of a dairy turn around. I was optimistic {and I’m rarely optimistic about anything} I was really anticipating that the price of milk would increase and I was wrong, with milk prices at $14.64/cwt with a $2.46 ppd swinging to $15.77/cwt and a $2.42 ppd {there was a $13.97/cwt with a $2.87 ppd in there too}. *For my non-farming friends CWT means for every 100 pounds of milk,…

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Cows that made Santa’s nice list

Hey guys! My name is Jessica. I help Nikki and her husband, Brad, with the milking process on their dairy farm. After reading the most recent Michigan Farm Girl blog post, Cows that didn’t make the nice list #2, (the list in which, not surprisingly, includes my favorite, #141, for the second year in a row 😒), I thought it would be fun to put together a list of NICE cows in the herd. Almost all of the cows are loving, gentle, and great milkers. I must have told Nikki three times or more that she got the easy job –…

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